Hello Everyone,
I have a confession to make, I have weaknesses. I have flaws. I make mistakes. So let me say this:
I love love love ice cream, especially if it is the famous Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream. But there is a bad side to this: Ben and Jerry's make me go to the bathroom. But the deliciousness of the ice cream is worth it. Now that I'm going on this weight loss project I can't eat ice cream anymore. Ice cream is one of the contributions to my obesity disease. My mom told me that I was gaining too much weight. She kept on asking me do I want to lose weight. I kept telling her yes I do want to lose weight. This is so unfair to me. I have to give up something that I fell in love with. Sometimes when I go to the store just to get Ice Cream I feel so embarrassed because I weigh 385 pounds. My mom told me when I start watching my weight, don't deny myself anything, but don't splurge on it either. When it comes to Ben and Jerry's, I have no self control. I just don't know. I need to find a healty alternative to Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream. So what will it be? Gelato? That nasty fruit sherbet? I just don't know what to do. Will it be twice a month or just plain old cold turkey for Ben and Jerry's? The guilt! The shame! How can I have will power if I only eat Ben and Jerry's twice a month? 5a12383e1247d6a7b0e747386c0b9ba44fb86377dce805a09e
Sunday, March 29, 2015
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
My Obesity Burden
Hello Everyone,
My body weight of 385 pounds has me going through many challenges other than fibroids. Also, every time I'm walking around in the house, I have a hard time catching my breath. Lately, I have been having dizzy spells. My body is always in a hot temperature and I sweat sometimes. I'm always thirsty and the only time I'm comfortable is when I'm laying down in the bed.
I always have to turn on the air conditioner. Some people say that big is beautiful. Some men say that they like some women with, what's the quote, "meat on their bones". But what about my health? I mean I'm paying a huge price everyday for having a heavy weight body and the price is brutal. Carrying 385 pounds in my body is like carrying a heavy load of large bricks with my hands without help. The strain is a burden to me.
It is everyday burden to my back, shoulders, arms, thighs and legs that suffers from mild pains from time to time. Why is it so easy to put the weight on the body and so hard to take the weight off? Sometimes my sides along with my back begins to hurt with sharp pains when I try to sit up from laying down in the bed. From time to time I have abdominal cramps that are extremely painful every time I try to bend over to pick up an object. The abdominal cramp is so painful I have to lay down either on my back or my stomach for a long period of time or walk around for a while just so the pain will end.
My body weight of 385 pounds has me going through many challenges other than fibroids. Also, every time I'm walking around in the house, I have a hard time catching my breath. Lately, I have been having dizzy spells. My body is always in a hot temperature and I sweat sometimes. I'm always thirsty and the only time I'm comfortable is when I'm laying down in the bed.
I always have to turn on the air conditioner. Some people say that big is beautiful. Some men say that they like some women with, what's the quote, "meat on their bones". But what about my health? I mean I'm paying a huge price everyday for having a heavy weight body and the price is brutal. Carrying 385 pounds in my body is like carrying a heavy load of large bricks with my hands without help. The strain is a burden to me.
It is everyday burden to my back, shoulders, arms, thighs and legs that suffers from mild pains from time to time. Why is it so easy to put the weight on the body and so hard to take the weight off? Sometimes my sides along with my back begins to hurt with sharp pains when I try to sit up from laying down in the bed. From time to time I have abdominal cramps that are extremely painful every time I try to bend over to pick up an object. The abdominal cramp is so painful I have to lay down either on my back or my stomach for a long period of time or walk around for a while just so the pain will end.
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
Diets Just Don't Work......Period! (Part 2)
Hello Everyone,
All my life I knew that diet pills were bad for people. I'm so glad that I never tried them.
DIET PILLS ARE NOT GOOD FOR YOU AND THEY DON'T WORK!!! Please remember that sentence. I heard so many bad things about diet pills. But now I'm going to change the subject.
On my other diet, I included exercising, of course, and drinking lots of water, more water than necessary, like 15 bottles of water a day. I didn't realize this idea was dangerous for me. During that time, I never heard of water intoxication until I recently read about it online from different websites. My food to eat would include dry cereal (without milk) and whatever I wanted for dinner. I wouldn't eat any snacks whatsoever. And my weight dropped so quick! I would lose five pounds in two days!
Now, as far as the "good" goes, I enjoyed Movement. Moving my body around in several different angles. Movement protects you from so many illnesses that hinder you from living your life. But when I completed my goal regarding weight loss, I went back to normal eating, like the sweets and junk and fast food. I even stop exercising. And guest what? I've gained my weight back.
Right now, I feel like I'm on a roller coaster, I'm NEVER "in between" or "in the middle". It's either up or down. It's either right or left. My body temperature is either hot or cold. As far as my body image, one year I'm thin, another year I'm fat, never in between and it's frustrating to me. Why can't people on this earth eat what they want to eat, be happy and not gain weight?
All my life I knew that diet pills were bad for people. I'm so glad that I never tried them.
DIET PILLS ARE NOT GOOD FOR YOU AND THEY DON'T WORK!!! Please remember that sentence. I heard so many bad things about diet pills. But now I'm going to change the subject.
On my other diet, I included exercising, of course, and drinking lots of water, more water than necessary, like 15 bottles of water a day. I didn't realize this idea was dangerous for me. During that time, I never heard of water intoxication until I recently read about it online from different websites. My food to eat would include dry cereal (without milk) and whatever I wanted for dinner. I wouldn't eat any snacks whatsoever. And my weight dropped so quick! I would lose five pounds in two days!
Now, as far as the "good" goes, I enjoyed Movement. Moving my body around in several different angles. Movement protects you from so many illnesses that hinder you from living your life. But when I completed my goal regarding weight loss, I went back to normal eating, like the sweets and junk and fast food. I even stop exercising. And guest what? I've gained my weight back.
Right now, I feel like I'm on a roller coaster, I'm NEVER "in between" or "in the middle". It's either up or down. It's either right or left. My body temperature is either hot or cold. As far as my body image, one year I'm thin, another year I'm fat, never in between and it's frustrating to me. Why can't people on this earth eat what they want to eat, be happy and not gain weight?
Monday, March 9, 2015
Diets Just Don't Work......Period! (Part 1)
Hello Everyone,
In the year 1991, when I was in the sixth grade in elementary school, I began to feel self conscious about my appearance. Everyday at lunch while all the other kids had their regular food on their plates, I only had one thing on my plate. For example, I would just have a slice of pizza on my plate and that is it. No vegetables, no bread, no fruit, nothing. Just pizza and maybe milk.
My teacher would always ask me why do I only have one thing on my plate and I would tell him that I'm trying to lose weight or I'm watching my weight. I would never tell my parents that I only ate one thing at lunch, even though they knew I was trying to lose weight. They knew that I was trying to lose weight, they just didn't like how I was doing it. While I was doing this to myself, they was trying to make me eat more than one thing for a meal. It was like I was trying to practically starve myself.
I would always restrict myself from eating more than one thing per meal because in my mind, I felt if I ate more than one piece of food per meal, I felt that I would gain my weight back immediately. I continued this habit through the summer. Of course, I loss a lot of weight, quickly. I shrunk from a size 16 to almost a size 10. By the time I was thin (when people said I was), I thought I was still fat (in my opinion). By the time I was thin and in middle school, I felt that it was safe for me to eat normal again. When I went back to eating what I wanted to eat, I became overweight again.
In the year 1991, when I was in the sixth grade in elementary school, I began to feel self conscious about my appearance. Everyday at lunch while all the other kids had their regular food on their plates, I only had one thing on my plate. For example, I would just have a slice of pizza on my plate and that is it. No vegetables, no bread, no fruit, nothing. Just pizza and maybe milk.
My teacher would always ask me why do I only have one thing on my plate and I would tell him that I'm trying to lose weight or I'm watching my weight. I would never tell my parents that I only ate one thing at lunch, even though they knew I was trying to lose weight. They knew that I was trying to lose weight, they just didn't like how I was doing it. While I was doing this to myself, they was trying to make me eat more than one thing for a meal. It was like I was trying to practically starve myself.
I would always restrict myself from eating more than one thing per meal because in my mind, I felt if I ate more than one piece of food per meal, I felt that I would gain my weight back immediately. I continued this habit through the summer. Of course, I loss a lot of weight, quickly. I shrunk from a size 16 to almost a size 10. By the time I was thin (when people said I was), I thought I was still fat (in my opinion). By the time I was thin and in middle school, I felt that it was safe for me to eat normal again. When I went back to eating what I wanted to eat, I became overweight again.
OMG! You Won't Believe This!
Hello Everyone,
My name is Shaunta Williams. On March 6, 2016 I took my mother to the doctor in Mobile, Alabama. When the nurse called my mom's name to see the doctor, I went in with her. A thought came across my mind, I'm going to weigh myself. My mother said don't do it, but I needed to know the truth. OK people, here it comes. Are you ready?
Well, the weight scale said I weigh 385 pounds! Yes, you read me right. You are not hallucinating. If I was on the phone with you, you would probably hang up in my face, right? I know what you are thinking in your head, "That don't make no damn sense!" I was in shock. "I kept telling you, you wouldn't listen to me," my mother kept repeating herself.
But she was not the only one telling that I needed to lose weight. About half of all my family members kept telling me that I needed to do something about my weight problem, but I kept on ignoring them. The reason why they are telling me these things is because on both sides of my family, there is heart disease as well as diabetes. I use to be a flexible person. Now everything that I do seems to tire me out. Sometimes my blood pressure is high.
Sometimes I get hot, then I get cold, then I get hot again, to the point that I'm starting to sweat. During the winter time, when I'm in the house, I turn on the air conditioner instead of the heater. I also have dizzy spells for a couple of seconds. These dizzy spells are annoying and I have to drink apple cider vinegar to get myself in order. I also have a teaspoon of cinnamon and have a bottle of water with the cinnamon. I also drink a glass of milk to control my high blood pressure.
Within the past few weeks, I recently developed a sharp pain on the top of my hand and sometimes it affects my entire arm and I don't know what it is. All my life I always had a problem with my weight. My weight always goes either up or down. Every time I lose weight, I have trouble keeping it off. I also developed a fibroid tumor on top of my uterus (you may read my blog about my fibroid tumor is http://www.blogher.com/myprofile/shaunta1999). I have to do something about this weight because I want to live. I want to be healthy again. I don't want to be another statistic.
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