Hello Everyone,
After my heart attack, I made the decision to live, in other words, I decided to eat the right foods and exercise. Since April 12, 2015 I have been doing the right thing and making the right choices. But now, my will power is beginning to fade away. Some people say if you feel like going into the temptations of doing what you want........avoid it. I see donuts in front of my face. Donuts........that are filled with sugar......and glaze........and I feel sooooooo weak and desperate. Why does this have to happen to me? Why? I know I can't have the donuts. I'm trying my best to walk away. I recently found the strength to walk away from Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream. I just wish my brother would just go ahead and eat up all those donuts and get it over with so I won't have to look them every time I pass by the table.
Tuesday, June 2, 2015
Sunday, May 31, 2015
Hell Night
Hello Everyone,
The last two days, I was having chest pains. My chest pains felt like a burning sensation. My arms felt really tensed and heavy. It was the same burning sensation right before I had my first heart attack between April 11 and April 12, 2015. Between the night of May 28, 2015 and the early morning of May 29, 2015, I had a hard time going to sleep. During my ordeal with my burning chest pains in the past two days, what was going through my mind was, "Oh no, not again! I'm going to have another heart attack!" I couldn't sleep at all during the night. I was tossing and turning in bed. I decided to get up and take an Aspirin. During my day at work my chest was burning every time I did any physical activity such as walking around (please keep in mind that I'm obese at 373 pounds), but when I sat down and relaxed my chest stop burning. I kept drinking water and tried to stay calm and relaxed through out the day. But luckily, I didn't have a second heart attack.
The last two days, I was having chest pains. My chest pains felt like a burning sensation. My arms felt really tensed and heavy. It was the same burning sensation right before I had my first heart attack between April 11 and April 12, 2015. Between the night of May 28, 2015 and the early morning of May 29, 2015, I had a hard time going to sleep. During my ordeal with my burning chest pains in the past two days, what was going through my mind was, "Oh no, not again! I'm going to have another heart attack!" I couldn't sleep at all during the night. I was tossing and turning in bed. I decided to get up and take an Aspirin. During my day at work my chest was burning every time I did any physical activity such as walking around (please keep in mind that I'm obese at 373 pounds), but when I sat down and relaxed my chest stop burning. I kept drinking water and tried to stay calm and relaxed through out the day. But luckily, I didn't have a second heart attack.
Saturday, May 30, 2015
Update On My Obesity
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Around the beginning of the year 2015, my weight was 385 pounds. Every since I had my heart attack in April I started eating healthy. When the hospital bed automatically determined my weight, it said 376 pounds. Last week when my aunt's weight scale determined my weight I was and still am 373 pounds. Since my heart attack (April 12, 2015), I've been eating lots of fruits and vegetables, such as cantaloupe, granny smith apples, strawberries, celery and peanut butter. I've also been using Mrs. Dash on baked fish and baked chicken. I've also been eating Lean Cuisine and dark chocolate. I've been picking up a sandwich from Subway before work. I always get the turkey breast with iceberg lettuce, spinach, cucumbers. I'm getting use to looking at the nutritional information when picking up an item. Also, I'm very excited to say that since I've been making healthy choices about food, my hemorrhaging from my fibroid has stopped! I no longer have the burden of dealing with month long heavy periods! Now about the peanut butter, I'm having a hard time deciding which peanut butter is the healthiest. Someone please help me!
Around the beginning of the year 2015, my weight was 385 pounds. Every since I had my heart attack in April I started eating healthy. When the hospital bed automatically determined my weight, it said 376 pounds. Last week when my aunt's weight scale determined my weight I was and still am 373 pounds. Since my heart attack (April 12, 2015), I've been eating lots of fruits and vegetables, such as cantaloupe, granny smith apples, strawberries, celery and peanut butter. I've also been using Mrs. Dash on baked fish and baked chicken. I've also been eating Lean Cuisine and dark chocolate. I've been picking up a sandwich from Subway before work. I always get the turkey breast with iceberg lettuce, spinach, cucumbers. I'm getting use to looking at the nutritional information when picking up an item. Also, I'm very excited to say that since I've been making healthy choices about food, my hemorrhaging from my fibroid has stopped! I no longer have the burden of dealing with month long heavy periods! Now about the peanut butter, I'm having a hard time deciding which peanut butter is the healthiest. Someone please help me!
Saturday, May 2, 2015
Being A Virgin Of Heart Disease
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Every since I got out of the hospital I've been doing great as far as eating healthy, eating fruits and vegetables, staying away from fried foods and eating in moderation and taking my heart medicine. They say confession is good for the soul. I've been following the doctors and nurses orders.....until now. I now must make my confession.....I've been backsliding....for a few days, but I lost some weight....I only lost a little weight....not a whole lot of weight. I went on an outing with my mother, brother and aunt. We went to go run some errands and we decided to go to lunch.....or dinner, whatever you want to call it. Guest where we went to.......Red Lobster......and yes, I ate some cheddar biscuits! I ate four of them! I know I wasn't suppose to eat those cheddar biscuits, but they were good! I hadn't had anything to eat all day long and I was hungry! I drunk raspberry lemonade and yes it had sugar in it. I had fried oysters and french fries. My mother and my aunt was upset at me and they said I should've eaten in moderation and I ate too fast. They told me not to eat anymore cheddar biscuits and I've shouldn't eaten the french fries. One of our friends called and she was wondering where I was because we were suppose to walking around the neighborhood circle. She was upset after my mom told her what I had done. Our friend wanted to talk to me on the phone. She said that I need to take my heart disease seriously. But when I got out of the hospital I've been doing what I was supposed to do. Why can't I have a little fun for one day? I know I wasn't suppose to eat the fried oysters and cheddar biscuits and I shouldn't have drunk that lemonade that was full of sugar, but I couldn't help myself. This is hard. I know I need to take my heart disease seriously. I just wasn't able to control my temptations.
Every since I got out of the hospital I've been doing great as far as eating healthy, eating fruits and vegetables, staying away from fried foods and eating in moderation and taking my heart medicine. They say confession is good for the soul. I've been following the doctors and nurses orders.....until now. I now must make my confession.....I've been backsliding....for a few days, but I lost some weight....I only lost a little weight....not a whole lot of weight. I went on an outing with my mother, brother and aunt. We went to go run some errands and we decided to go to lunch.....or dinner, whatever you want to call it. Guest where we went to.......Red Lobster......and yes, I ate some cheddar biscuits! I ate four of them! I know I wasn't suppose to eat those cheddar biscuits, but they were good! I hadn't had anything to eat all day long and I was hungry! I drunk raspberry lemonade and yes it had sugar in it. I had fried oysters and french fries. My mother and my aunt was upset at me and they said I should've eaten in moderation and I ate too fast. They told me not to eat anymore cheddar biscuits and I've shouldn't eaten the french fries. One of our friends called and she was wondering where I was because we were suppose to walking around the neighborhood circle. She was upset after my mom told her what I had done. Our friend wanted to talk to me on the phone. She said that I need to take my heart disease seriously. But when I got out of the hospital I've been doing what I was supposed to do. Why can't I have a little fun for one day? I know I wasn't suppose to eat the fried oysters and cheddar biscuits and I shouldn't have drunk that lemonade that was full of sugar, but I couldn't help myself. This is hard. I know I need to take my heart disease seriously. I just wasn't able to control my temptations.
Wednesday, April 29, 2015
The Price of Obesity
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My obese body weight has me going through many challenges other than fibroids. Also, every time I'm walking around in the house, I have a hard time catching my breath. Lately, I have been having dizzy spells. My body is always in a hot temperature and I sweat sometimes. I'm always thirsty and the only time I'm comfortable is when I'm laying down in the bed. I always have to turn on the air conditioner. Some people say that big is beautiful. Some men say that they like some women with, what's the quote, "meat on their bones". But what about my health? I mean I'm paying a huge price for having a heavy set body and the price is brutal.
My obese body weight has me going through many challenges other than fibroids. Also, every time I'm walking around in the house, I have a hard time catching my breath. Lately, I have been having dizzy spells. My body is always in a hot temperature and I sweat sometimes. I'm always thirsty and the only time I'm comfortable is when I'm laying down in the bed. I always have to turn on the air conditioner. Some people say that big is beautiful. Some men say that they like some women with, what's the quote, "meat on their bones". But what about my health? I mean I'm paying a huge price for having a heavy set body and the price is brutal.
Saturday, April 25, 2015
The Decision to Live
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After my heart attack, I started making wise choices about what I eat. The foods on my list that I consider wise choices are turkey sausage, egg whites without yokes, applesauce, wheat bread, fruits and vegetables. Celery with peanut butter has really grown on me. Today, my family bought KFC for dinner. I chose to eat a turkey sandwich and some applesauce. I'm so proud of myself! I kept the sodas away from me as well. My relatives and friends have been stressing to me about the importance of eating in moderation. I'm not going to lie, it has been really hard. I miss some of the foods I love, such as ice cream and other sweet foods. Just look at the healthy foods I've been eating for almost a month!
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Where Do I Go From Here?
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On my last day at the hospital the nurse told me to stay away from all foods that contain a large amount of sodium, including all canned vegetables because they contain a large amount of salt and sodium. In order to receive the real vitamins and minerals as part of nutrition, you must eat fresh vegetables, you know, the kind that are in produce section from the grocery store or a fruit stand. She also told me to stay away from different kinds of sodas.
After having a heart attack and laying in that hospital bed, I realize that everything that I thought was healthy may not be healthy at all. There really is such a thing called "looks can be deceiving". Foods that say that they are low fat may contain a lot of salt. Salt is not good for anyone.
So right now I'm laying in my bed, trying to figure out "where do I go from here?". What kind of food do I eat without sodium? I was planning on just watching my weight, but now I'm going to have to be more strict. I have to rebrand myself. Well, I hate to do this, but I have to return my Knorr rice products to Walmart because of the large amount of sodium.
The nurse said I have to stay away from Sodium because Sodium, which is the same thing as Salt, will raise my blood pressure. I'm still going to keep my favorite dark chocolate brands, Green and Black's and Ghirardelli because I know dark chocolate is good for the human body.
On my last day at the hospital the nurse told me to stay away from all foods that contain a large amount of sodium, including all canned vegetables because they contain a large amount of salt and sodium. In order to receive the real vitamins and minerals as part of nutrition, you must eat fresh vegetables, you know, the kind that are in produce section from the grocery store or a fruit stand. She also told me to stay away from different kinds of sodas.
After having a heart attack and laying in that hospital bed, I realize that everything that I thought was healthy may not be healthy at all. There really is such a thing called "looks can be deceiving". Foods that say that they are low fat may contain a lot of salt. Salt is not good for anyone.
So right now I'm laying in my bed, trying to figure out "where do I go from here?". What kind of food do I eat without sodium? I was planning on just watching my weight, but now I'm going to have to be more strict. I have to rebrand myself. Well, I hate to do this, but I have to return my Knorr rice products to Walmart because of the large amount of sodium.
The nurse said I have to stay away from Sodium because Sodium, which is the same thing as Salt, will raise my blood pressure. I'm still going to keep my favorite dark chocolate brands, Green and Black's and Ghirardelli because I know dark chocolate is good for the human body.
My First Heart Cath In The Hospital
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I was nervous about my heart cath during my visit at the hospital. I heard lots of stories, like the doctors will put you to sleep with medication. But I had forgot the fact that some people tend to exaggerate things. Those stories didn't help me one bit. I've never ever been on the table under the knife before. I was scarred out of my wits.
I had didn't have a choice though. If I wanted to live, I was going to have to put on my big girl underwear and go through the heart cath. The very first time I heard the words heart cath, what was pictured in my mind was being put to sleep and having someone's chest being sliced and opened and poking their heart with a knife or whatever objects surgeons use in order to fix up someone. The nurses and my family told me that during a heart cath, doctors use a tube on your wrist and push it up through the arm to the chest so they can look and see what is going on at the screen and see how much blockage is inside the arteries.
Well the Monday came and I knew that the big moment was coming. I had time to do some breathing sessions. The nurse came in early in the morning and gave me some anti-bacterial soap and anti-bacterial wipes and had me take a shower so there won't be any germs on my body during the heart cath. So I go in the shower and used the soap they gave me and used the wipes after I got out of the shower. Later on, the nurses brought in a bed in my room and put me in it so they can wheel me to a room that had sections with beds, units and televisions.
All sections had numbers labeled. The nurses said I have to take off my underwear just in case they have to do the heart cath from the groin. Doctors do heart cath in two ways: through the wrist or through the groin. Me, being the chicken that I am, I chose the wrist. They gave me aspirin for the pain and made me wait a few minutes. After a few minutes, I was finally put in the health cath room. It was so cold in there.
By the time surgeons got me on the table, I wasn't scarred anymore. The anxiety and thoughts left my mind. I got wanted to get it over with. There was this huge screen thing on top of my head. I kept on asking several questions like, "Are you guys going to put me to sleep?" They said no they are not going to put me to sleep.
The surgeons said they were going to numb my wrist so I won't feel anything. I kept my eyes closed. I could feel the needle in my wrist and the tube going up to my arm. They took a look at my arteries on the screen. The doctor said they have seen that my diagonal branch (D1) had 99 percent blockage, my LAD had 2 percent blockage, but my main arteries are good. In order to go to the diagonal branch (D1) they have to go through the LAD and the left main artery.
I can't get a stent put in my diagonal branch (D1). If I had the surgery I would not survive because I weigh 376 pounds (last month I weighed 385 pounds) and the surgeons didn't want to take a chance with me. So the doctors prescribe me some heart medication that is part of the Walmart $4.00 drug prescription program to get the blockage cleared away. It turned out that my hearth cath wasn't so bad. I was afraid for nothing. The surgeons and nurses bandaged my arm and put this huge thing around it. I loved everyone at the hospital they did a wonderful job with me.
The picture below is my illustration of where my blockage is.
I was nervous about my heart cath during my visit at the hospital. I heard lots of stories, like the doctors will put you to sleep with medication. But I had forgot the fact that some people tend to exaggerate things. Those stories didn't help me one bit. I've never ever been on the table under the knife before. I was scarred out of my wits.
I had didn't have a choice though. If I wanted to live, I was going to have to put on my big girl underwear and go through the heart cath. The very first time I heard the words heart cath, what was pictured in my mind was being put to sleep and having someone's chest being sliced and opened and poking their heart with a knife or whatever objects surgeons use in order to fix up someone. The nurses and my family told me that during a heart cath, doctors use a tube on your wrist and push it up through the arm to the chest so they can look and see what is going on at the screen and see how much blockage is inside the arteries.
Well the Monday came and I knew that the big moment was coming. I had time to do some breathing sessions. The nurse came in early in the morning and gave me some anti-bacterial soap and anti-bacterial wipes and had me take a shower so there won't be any germs on my body during the heart cath. So I go in the shower and used the soap they gave me and used the wipes after I got out of the shower. Later on, the nurses brought in a bed in my room and put me in it so they can wheel me to a room that had sections with beds, units and televisions.
All sections had numbers labeled. The nurses said I have to take off my underwear just in case they have to do the heart cath from the groin. Doctors do heart cath in two ways: through the wrist or through the groin. Me, being the chicken that I am, I chose the wrist. They gave me aspirin for the pain and made me wait a few minutes. After a few minutes, I was finally put in the health cath room. It was so cold in there.
By the time surgeons got me on the table, I wasn't scarred anymore. The anxiety and thoughts left my mind. I got wanted to get it over with. There was this huge screen thing on top of my head. I kept on asking several questions like, "Are you guys going to put me to sleep?" They said no they are not going to put me to sleep.
The surgeons said they were going to numb my wrist so I won't feel anything. I kept my eyes closed. I could feel the needle in my wrist and the tube going up to my arm. They took a look at my arteries on the screen. The doctor said they have seen that my diagonal branch (D1) had 99 percent blockage, my LAD had 2 percent blockage, but my main arteries are good. In order to go to the diagonal branch (D1) they have to go through the LAD and the left main artery.
I can't get a stent put in my diagonal branch (D1). If I had the surgery I would not survive because I weigh 376 pounds (last month I weighed 385 pounds) and the surgeons didn't want to take a chance with me. So the doctors prescribe me some heart medication that is part of the Walmart $4.00 drug prescription program to get the blockage cleared away. It turned out that my hearth cath wasn't so bad. I was afraid for nothing. The surgeons and nurses bandaged my arm and put this huge thing around it. I loved everyone at the hospital they did a wonderful job with me.
The picture below is my illustration of where my blockage is.
Sunday, April 12, 2015
Heart Attack, Maybe? I don't know.
Hello Everyone,
Well I just want to let you know that I'm officially admitted into the hospital to get some test done. My chest pains were so intense I woke up my family member who I've taken to the doctor on Friday, March 11, 2015. On the next day Saturday, I wasn't feeling so good. I laid in the bed all day Saturday because my chest was hurting every time I walked around or did some physical work. My chest would be better if I just laid down and did absolute nothing. The kitchen was a mess, but I just didn't have any energy to do anything during the day. Later that night, I tried to fix me something to drink and once again, my chest started to bother me so bad I started to sweat. I decided to sit down in the family room and wake my relative up and tell him that my I'm having chest pains. He asked me did I need to go to the hospital. I told him yes. While he was getting dressed he gave me 3 antacids to help me. They helped me for a short time. I went into the ER and I didn't even have to wait. I had to admit, I was so scarred. This was the moment that I didn't want to go through. I waited too late to change my ways. Thank God I'm given another chance. After the doctors and nurses asked me several questions, measured my blood pressure and took my blood, I turned on the TV (I didn't have anything else to do but just lay there and wait on the doctor). Later, the nurse gave me a shot on my butt (yes, my butt). After awhile, I felt better. Later the doctor and nurses came back and discussed my heart enzymes with me. They said because my heart enzymes were elevated and high, I either might have done some damage to my heart OR I'm not getting enough oxygen to my heart. I was like, damage? To my heart? What damage? Then it hit me. I was like........Oh no! So the hospital decided to keep me........and yes the nurses and doctors are still taking my temperature and my blood pressure and my blood, lots of blood. I've been looking at needles and blood throughout the day. A different doctor (my relative's doctor) who came to my room told my relatives and I because of my heart enzyme levels were elevated and high, I may be possible that I might have had a small mild heart attack, he's not sure. He also said that I might need a heart cal to see what he working with. No! I've never been put to sleep before and I never been under the knife before. I'm so nervous. So I'm awaiting the results of all these test that are being taken. I will keep you guys posted.
Well I just want to let you know that I'm officially admitted into the hospital to get some test done. My chest pains were so intense I woke up my family member who I've taken to the doctor on Friday, March 11, 2015. On the next day Saturday, I wasn't feeling so good. I laid in the bed all day Saturday because my chest was hurting every time I walked around or did some physical work. My chest would be better if I just laid down and did absolute nothing. The kitchen was a mess, but I just didn't have any energy to do anything during the day. Later that night, I tried to fix me something to drink and once again, my chest started to bother me so bad I started to sweat. I decided to sit down in the family room and wake my relative up and tell him that my I'm having chest pains. He asked me did I need to go to the hospital. I told him yes. While he was getting dressed he gave me 3 antacids to help me. They helped me for a short time. I went into the ER and I didn't even have to wait. I had to admit, I was so scarred. This was the moment that I didn't want to go through. I waited too late to change my ways. Thank God I'm given another chance. After the doctors and nurses asked me several questions, measured my blood pressure and took my blood, I turned on the TV (I didn't have anything else to do but just lay there and wait on the doctor). Later, the nurse gave me a shot on my butt (yes, my butt). After awhile, I felt better. Later the doctor and nurses came back and discussed my heart enzymes with me. They said because my heart enzymes were elevated and high, I either might have done some damage to my heart OR I'm not getting enough oxygen to my heart. I was like, damage? To my heart? What damage? Then it hit me. I was like........Oh no! So the hospital decided to keep me........and yes the nurses and doctors are still taking my temperature and my blood pressure and my blood, lots of blood. I've been looking at needles and blood throughout the day. A different doctor (my relative's doctor) who came to my room told my relatives and I because of my heart enzyme levels were elevated and high, I may be possible that I might have had a small mild heart attack, he's not sure. He also said that I might need a heart cal to see what he working with. No! I've never been put to sleep before and I never been under the knife before. I'm so nervous. So I'm awaiting the results of all these test that are being taken. I will keep you guys posted.
Saturday, April 11, 2015
Do I have Angina? I hope not!
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While I was at the doctor's office with a family member the entire day, my chess was burning, constantly. Every time I got up and walked around my chess was burning. But every time I sat down, the burning in my chest would stop. This has been going on ever since my relative told me to get up and put on some clothes so I can go to the doctor with him. I had to go with him because he needed someone to drive him home. I drunk some milk before I left home so my blood pressure or sugar can go down and help me relax, it only helped for a short time. When my relative told me to do something, I was slow to do it because I knew the burning sensation would start again. The burning would come on in the same places, right in the chest, my shoulders and upper arms. At first I thought that maybe my bra was too tight so I adjusted my bra. After I adjusted my bra, the burning sensation was still going on while I was walking around. On Saturday, it was painful just to walk from my room to the kitchen. Now my weight is 385 pounds and never came across this! Wait a minute, I have high blood pressure from time to time. I looked on the internet and it said this is something called angina. In medical terms it is called Angina Pectoris.
While I was at the doctor's office with a family member the entire day, my chess was burning, constantly. Every time I got up and walked around my chess was burning. But every time I sat down, the burning in my chest would stop. This has been going on ever since my relative told me to get up and put on some clothes so I can go to the doctor with him. I had to go with him because he needed someone to drive him home. I drunk some milk before I left home so my blood pressure or sugar can go down and help me relax, it only helped for a short time. When my relative told me to do something, I was slow to do it because I knew the burning sensation would start again. The burning would come on in the same places, right in the chest, my shoulders and upper arms. At first I thought that maybe my bra was too tight so I adjusted my bra. After I adjusted my bra, the burning sensation was still going on while I was walking around. On Saturday, it was painful just to walk from my room to the kitchen. Now my weight is 385 pounds and never came across this! Wait a minute, I have high blood pressure from time to time. I looked on the internet and it said this is something called angina. In medical terms it is called Angina Pectoris.
Making The Choice Of Life
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A family member of mine has only one artery working and the rest of the arteries closed up with plaque. That one artery of the heart is keeping him alive. The doctor says he is going to have to lose weight which will help a lot. But look like some ways, besides exercising, are going to have to change. I'm going to have to start buying some Olive Oil and more herbs and spices. No more salt. I read on the internet about how to clean heart arteries naturally. Looks like I will make a habit of making him drink some Apple Cider Vinegar. During the last couple of years, I found out for myself that ACV can be my best friend. Many people say the Apple Cider Vinegar is part of an old fashion remedy. But I'm starting to learn that those old remedies always work.
A family member of mine has only one artery working and the rest of the arteries closed up with plaque. That one artery of the heart is keeping him alive. The doctor says he is going to have to lose weight which will help a lot. But look like some ways, besides exercising, are going to have to change. I'm going to have to start buying some Olive Oil and more herbs and spices. No more salt. I read on the internet about how to clean heart arteries naturally. Looks like I will make a habit of making him drink some Apple Cider Vinegar. During the last couple of years, I found out for myself that ACV can be my best friend. Many people say the Apple Cider Vinegar is part of an old fashion remedy. But I'm starting to learn that those old remedies always work.
Sunday, March 29, 2015
My Guilty Pleasures
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I have a confession to make, I have weaknesses. I have flaws. I make mistakes. So let me say this:
I love love love ice cream, especially if it is the famous Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream. But there is a bad side to this: Ben and Jerry's make me go to the bathroom. But the deliciousness of the ice cream is worth it. Now that I'm going on this weight loss project I can't eat ice cream anymore. Ice cream is one of the contributions to my obesity disease. My mom told me that I was gaining too much weight. She kept on asking me do I want to lose weight. I kept telling her yes I do want to lose weight. This is so unfair to me. I have to give up something that I fell in love with. Sometimes when I go to the store just to get Ice Cream I feel so embarrassed because I weigh 385 pounds. My mom told me when I start watching my weight, don't deny myself anything, but don't splurge on it either. When it comes to Ben and Jerry's, I have no self control. I just don't know. I need to find a healty alternative to Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream. So what will it be? Gelato? That nasty fruit sherbet? I just don't know what to do. Will it be twice a month or just plain old cold turkey for Ben and Jerry's? The guilt! The shame! How can I have will power if I only eat Ben and Jerry's twice a month? 5a12383e1247d6a7b0e747386c0b9ba44fb86377dce805a09e
I have a confession to make, I have weaknesses. I have flaws. I make mistakes. So let me say this:
I love love love ice cream, especially if it is the famous Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream. But there is a bad side to this: Ben and Jerry's make me go to the bathroom. But the deliciousness of the ice cream is worth it. Now that I'm going on this weight loss project I can't eat ice cream anymore. Ice cream is one of the contributions to my obesity disease. My mom told me that I was gaining too much weight. She kept on asking me do I want to lose weight. I kept telling her yes I do want to lose weight. This is so unfair to me. I have to give up something that I fell in love with. Sometimes when I go to the store just to get Ice Cream I feel so embarrassed because I weigh 385 pounds. My mom told me when I start watching my weight, don't deny myself anything, but don't splurge on it either. When it comes to Ben and Jerry's, I have no self control. I just don't know. I need to find a healty alternative to Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream. So what will it be? Gelato? That nasty fruit sherbet? I just don't know what to do. Will it be twice a month or just plain old cold turkey for Ben and Jerry's? The guilt! The shame! How can I have will power if I only eat Ben and Jerry's twice a month? 5a12383e1247d6a7b0e747386c0b9ba44fb86377dce805a09e
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
My Obesity Burden
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My body weight of 385 pounds has me going through many challenges other than fibroids. Also, every time I'm walking around in the house, I have a hard time catching my breath. Lately, I have been having dizzy spells. My body is always in a hot temperature and I sweat sometimes. I'm always thirsty and the only time I'm comfortable is when I'm laying down in the bed.
I always have to turn on the air conditioner. Some people say that big is beautiful. Some men say that they like some women with, what's the quote, "meat on their bones". But what about my health? I mean I'm paying a huge price everyday for having a heavy weight body and the price is brutal. Carrying 385 pounds in my body is like carrying a heavy load of large bricks with my hands without help. The strain is a burden to me.
It is everyday burden to my back, shoulders, arms, thighs and legs that suffers from mild pains from time to time. Why is it so easy to put the weight on the body and so hard to take the weight off? Sometimes my sides along with my back begins to hurt with sharp pains when I try to sit up from laying down in the bed. From time to time I have abdominal cramps that are extremely painful every time I try to bend over to pick up an object. The abdominal cramp is so painful I have to lay down either on my back or my stomach for a long period of time or walk around for a while just so the pain will end.
My body weight of 385 pounds has me going through many challenges other than fibroids. Also, every time I'm walking around in the house, I have a hard time catching my breath. Lately, I have been having dizzy spells. My body is always in a hot temperature and I sweat sometimes. I'm always thirsty and the only time I'm comfortable is when I'm laying down in the bed.
I always have to turn on the air conditioner. Some people say that big is beautiful. Some men say that they like some women with, what's the quote, "meat on their bones". But what about my health? I mean I'm paying a huge price everyday for having a heavy weight body and the price is brutal. Carrying 385 pounds in my body is like carrying a heavy load of large bricks with my hands without help. The strain is a burden to me.
It is everyday burden to my back, shoulders, arms, thighs and legs that suffers from mild pains from time to time. Why is it so easy to put the weight on the body and so hard to take the weight off? Sometimes my sides along with my back begins to hurt with sharp pains when I try to sit up from laying down in the bed. From time to time I have abdominal cramps that are extremely painful every time I try to bend over to pick up an object. The abdominal cramp is so painful I have to lay down either on my back or my stomach for a long period of time or walk around for a while just so the pain will end.
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
Diets Just Don't Work......Period! (Part 2)
Hello Everyone,
All my life I knew that diet pills were bad for people. I'm so glad that I never tried them.
DIET PILLS ARE NOT GOOD FOR YOU AND THEY DON'T WORK!!! Please remember that sentence. I heard so many bad things about diet pills. But now I'm going to change the subject.
On my other diet, I included exercising, of course, and drinking lots of water, more water than necessary, like 15 bottles of water a day. I didn't realize this idea was dangerous for me. During that time, I never heard of water intoxication until I recently read about it online from different websites. My food to eat would include dry cereal (without milk) and whatever I wanted for dinner. I wouldn't eat any snacks whatsoever. And my weight dropped so quick! I would lose five pounds in two days!
Now, as far as the "good" goes, I enjoyed Movement. Moving my body around in several different angles. Movement protects you from so many illnesses that hinder you from living your life. But when I completed my goal regarding weight loss, I went back to normal eating, like the sweets and junk and fast food. I even stop exercising. And guest what? I've gained my weight back.
Right now, I feel like I'm on a roller coaster, I'm NEVER "in between" or "in the middle". It's either up or down. It's either right or left. My body temperature is either hot or cold. As far as my body image, one year I'm thin, another year I'm fat, never in between and it's frustrating to me. Why can't people on this earth eat what they want to eat, be happy and not gain weight?
All my life I knew that diet pills were bad for people. I'm so glad that I never tried them.
DIET PILLS ARE NOT GOOD FOR YOU AND THEY DON'T WORK!!! Please remember that sentence. I heard so many bad things about diet pills. But now I'm going to change the subject.
On my other diet, I included exercising, of course, and drinking lots of water, more water than necessary, like 15 bottles of water a day. I didn't realize this idea was dangerous for me. During that time, I never heard of water intoxication until I recently read about it online from different websites. My food to eat would include dry cereal (without milk) and whatever I wanted for dinner. I wouldn't eat any snacks whatsoever. And my weight dropped so quick! I would lose five pounds in two days!
Now, as far as the "good" goes, I enjoyed Movement. Moving my body around in several different angles. Movement protects you from so many illnesses that hinder you from living your life. But when I completed my goal regarding weight loss, I went back to normal eating, like the sweets and junk and fast food. I even stop exercising. And guest what? I've gained my weight back.
Right now, I feel like I'm on a roller coaster, I'm NEVER "in between" or "in the middle". It's either up or down. It's either right or left. My body temperature is either hot or cold. As far as my body image, one year I'm thin, another year I'm fat, never in between and it's frustrating to me. Why can't people on this earth eat what they want to eat, be happy and not gain weight?
Monday, March 9, 2015
Diets Just Don't Work......Period! (Part 1)
Hello Everyone,
In the year 1991, when I was in the sixth grade in elementary school, I began to feel self conscious about my appearance. Everyday at lunch while all the other kids had their regular food on their plates, I only had one thing on my plate. For example, I would just have a slice of pizza on my plate and that is it. No vegetables, no bread, no fruit, nothing. Just pizza and maybe milk.
My teacher would always ask me why do I only have one thing on my plate and I would tell him that I'm trying to lose weight or I'm watching my weight. I would never tell my parents that I only ate one thing at lunch, even though they knew I was trying to lose weight. They knew that I was trying to lose weight, they just didn't like how I was doing it. While I was doing this to myself, they was trying to make me eat more than one thing for a meal. It was like I was trying to practically starve myself.
I would always restrict myself from eating more than one thing per meal because in my mind, I felt if I ate more than one piece of food per meal, I felt that I would gain my weight back immediately. I continued this habit through the summer. Of course, I loss a lot of weight, quickly. I shrunk from a size 16 to almost a size 10. By the time I was thin (when people said I was), I thought I was still fat (in my opinion). By the time I was thin and in middle school, I felt that it was safe for me to eat normal again. When I went back to eating what I wanted to eat, I became overweight again.
In the year 1991, when I was in the sixth grade in elementary school, I began to feel self conscious about my appearance. Everyday at lunch while all the other kids had their regular food on their plates, I only had one thing on my plate. For example, I would just have a slice of pizza on my plate and that is it. No vegetables, no bread, no fruit, nothing. Just pizza and maybe milk.
My teacher would always ask me why do I only have one thing on my plate and I would tell him that I'm trying to lose weight or I'm watching my weight. I would never tell my parents that I only ate one thing at lunch, even though they knew I was trying to lose weight. They knew that I was trying to lose weight, they just didn't like how I was doing it. While I was doing this to myself, they was trying to make me eat more than one thing for a meal. It was like I was trying to practically starve myself.
I would always restrict myself from eating more than one thing per meal because in my mind, I felt if I ate more than one piece of food per meal, I felt that I would gain my weight back immediately. I continued this habit through the summer. Of course, I loss a lot of weight, quickly. I shrunk from a size 16 to almost a size 10. By the time I was thin (when people said I was), I thought I was still fat (in my opinion). By the time I was thin and in middle school, I felt that it was safe for me to eat normal again. When I went back to eating what I wanted to eat, I became overweight again.
OMG! You Won't Believe This!
Hello Everyone,
My name is Shaunta Williams. On March 6, 2016 I took my mother to the doctor in Mobile, Alabama. When the nurse called my mom's name to see the doctor, I went in with her. A thought came across my mind, I'm going to weigh myself. My mother said don't do it, but I needed to know the truth. OK people, here it comes. Are you ready?
Well, the weight scale said I weigh 385 pounds! Yes, you read me right. You are not hallucinating. If I was on the phone with you, you would probably hang up in my face, right? I know what you are thinking in your head, "That don't make no damn sense!" I was in shock. "I kept telling you, you wouldn't listen to me," my mother kept repeating herself.
But she was not the only one telling that I needed to lose weight. About half of all my family members kept telling me that I needed to do something about my weight problem, but I kept on ignoring them. The reason why they are telling me these things is because on both sides of my family, there is heart disease as well as diabetes. I use to be a flexible person. Now everything that I do seems to tire me out. Sometimes my blood pressure is high.
Sometimes I get hot, then I get cold, then I get hot again, to the point that I'm starting to sweat. During the winter time, when I'm in the house, I turn on the air conditioner instead of the heater. I also have dizzy spells for a couple of seconds. These dizzy spells are annoying and I have to drink apple cider vinegar to get myself in order. I also have a teaspoon of cinnamon and have a bottle of water with the cinnamon. I also drink a glass of milk to control my high blood pressure.
Within the past few weeks, I recently developed a sharp pain on the top of my hand and sometimes it affects my entire arm and I don't know what it is. All my life I always had a problem with my weight. My weight always goes either up or down. Every time I lose weight, I have trouble keeping it off. I also developed a fibroid tumor on top of my uterus (you may read my blog about my fibroid tumor is http://www.blogher.com/myprofile/shaunta1999). I have to do something about this weight because I want to live. I want to be healthy again. I don't want to be another statistic.
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